New hair style for coming new year! yeah~~

really cannot tolerate my messy, tangled, full of dandruff permed hair.. terrible.. very terrible.. i cant even comb my hair for the past few months.. after came back from my genting trip, my hair condition got worsen.. lotsa of flaky dandruff, hair so dry................ very tangled up, itchy....  : _(

went to a salon just at the opposite of my block for soft rebonding, scalp treatment and medicated anti dandruff shampoo..  now i like my hair so much.. but the scalp treatment lotion smell sucks.. like burnt wood on my head.. but finally i can comb my hair.. easier to maintain.. and mrpolarbear can play with my hair again without any tangles.. ahahaahah.. but... have consequences.. the math calculation is very simple.. hahaha..

soft rebonding ($145) + scalp treatment ($65) + medicated anti dandruff shampoo ($20) = Pretty pretty ($230)

and the result?
is this!! *refer to the pic above...  :)

Counting down 2 more days to my EOY trip with MrPolarBear

now waiting for my mum to come back home for dinner.. was raining in the noon but the weather is still not cold enough compared what it used to be like when i was young though is dec~consider weather time in our all around summer country..

2 days.. just 2 more days i'll be going to Genting and be able to enjoy the cold weather, wearing jacket and scarf while enjoying the beautiful sunset (if no rain) How i wish to stay there forever.. hahaha.. 

dunno why.. sigh.. been having alot of arguements with my MrPolarBear.. even when we hardly meet up, I'll always ended up feeling upset or hurt about what he have said.. but no matter what i still do care for him though he whines alot about his work, his life and his mum..

Been like a counselor, keep on emphasize to him~~Be more positive, think about being happy rather than keep on talking about unhappy moments.. Get use to it.. it's Life.. Is unfair but still have to live on.. Really hope he can just stay positive, positive, positive!

Hope this upcoming trip can just help to bring our relationship more positive and pleasant 1.. [cross my fingers, no arguements during the trip and enjoy the happy moments together..] it's already not easy to find someone to settle down so why make it not happy memories together. I look forward to be able to talk about those happy days we had together while looking back when we were old..

*God bless me please*

When was the last time I've posted something here..

It's been a long long while that I've actually took the time to recall what websites i've created for blogging.. As now I'm out of job again so I have the time to actually surf the net and do some research on the current trend in handmade jewellery..

Tired of looking for a new job with good salary which is near impossible for me due to the working experience i have in spore. Wanted to set up a fashion business by myself and hoping that I can be more flexible in my hours whether is at home or catching up with my friends.

Read the posts that I have written since Aug 2004 makes me want to laugh due to my language, grammar and spelling mistakes.. Guess didn't have much sleep last time so typo typo typo.. How my english now? 
Much better than last time? Hopefully not worsened.. :P

Thank you for the comments made by God's messenger and juicy fruiter for the past few years.. Not sure if you are still reading my blogs anymore coz the time was since 2006 if i'm not wrong. Hope you all are still doing fine and hope to see your comments again in my blog. (thank you)

Had borrowed some books from the library about handmade jewellery and different designs that has attracted me to make them once i've got the skills to do it.. My future is still unpredictible. My mum is supportive when i've mention to her about the handicraft business that I wanted to persue in.. 

Saw some of the websites that others have created and did check out on their designs.. Some are good and creative but some are quite limited.. Not confident whether I'm cut for this industry as whether i am able to sell my designs while compete with those who are doing it for a few years already.

Glad that I'm able to make my mum happy.. She is such a simple person. Gave her my samsung phone, bought her a prepaid card, a new phone pouch and lastly redeem back things that she has pawned (hopefully she dun do it again coz will cost me a bomb again)
Hope she knows i dote her alot..

Been raining since Dec arrives, some days were quite cold, some days were not.. From blanket change to sleeping bag as a blanket.. haha.. How i wish spore will never be hot for the next 11 months.. Remain as what it is now.. Can wear nice coat or jacket and maybe dress up like a eskimo..

Took some medicine this morning cause going to have flu and sore throat.. Not sure of the cause but definitely don't want to fall sick as will feel terrible not to be able to go out..
Wanted to go for short trip during this month, but others schedule not able to make it so have to wait till next year..

It's coming to the end of 2007, been through ups and downs for the past 12 months.. Hopefully next year will be a better year, my business hopefully can pick up, financial freedom and lastly relationship can be well maintained.. Bought myself a new handphone.. Good quality camera built in. Will try to post some photos in here and by then i can set up an online website using the good pictures i took with my designs! Stay tune for the good news ppl!! 

*Was thinking of a name for my online jewellery shop. Saw my last post about my japanese name. Sounds nice to me. How do you find the name, Ishii Ayumi aka 石井歩? Nice? Can give me some comments? Thanks!

Cheers'

my japanese name is...

石井 Ishii (stone well) 歩 Ayumi (walk, deeper meaning: walk your own way)

so long...

wow... so long nv blog here liao.. think since march till nw... =P i'm now working night shift loh.. so till nw still have sleep.. ahhaa... aiya...having nose block nw, dunno y suddenly got it man... haiz... i'm now counting down the days going to genting... and..... 3 more days to go... wooh...!! i'm going for a short trip away from work n spore... finally i'm gonna rest till I happy man... can go crazy from my work ah!!

just last sat... I've finally sign up as a member in Devils Bar.. Ahahah.. so happy.. I've got the hot devils card... wooh.... now can go drink my vohka n black label... ahaha... no need to think wat to drink for the night when I go clubbing liao.. but.. i'm going broke soon... pay $338 for the membership.. abit heartpain... tomolo after work, i'm going home to sleep awhile then go to the salon to dye my hair ba.. really kind of sick of my hair colour le... angry leh.. last week, the hair stylist who do my soft straight for me made my hair spoil liao... nw my side is so dry.... no choice have to go for hair treatment to rescue my hair... haiz... still thinking wat hair colour i wan.... only noe is something obvious so that everyone will noe that i've changed my hair colour.. ahahah!!!

next week after i've returned from genting, I've to work 2 night duty... wa kao... so sian leh.. ppl take urgent leave then me on standby on sunday so gana have to cover her duty.. some more night leh... sian lah..... stupid leh... i just finish my night then have to do her night... some more my night allowance so damn low... i so angry ah.... cant they just be fair to me... i also human being liao.. y like that treat me... no off day... work till my face also got pimples liao... =_(

now having backache, really hope someone can give me a very good massage man... the night is still so long... dunno wat i can do next to kill my time man... I need a man ah... a man that is not too good or bad lah... can go clubbing with me, have fun, nice to chat with n i love me 1.... I so sick of relationship but haiz... just really hate the feeling man.... dunno y humans are such a difficult to know animals in the world leh??

so tired and sleepy.. *yawn

this morning came back from work.. like zombie.. keke.. I use my new hp to take photos of my collegues and save it to the photobook... next time they call me i can see their pics... =) I like my new hp more n more each day.. hahaha...

I slept at 11am this morning but woken up awhile at 2+pm.. cant get back to sleep so listen to my mp3 till fallen asleep again. I woke up at 4+pm and smell food from the kitchen.. Oh my.. is my favourite.. Minced pork with salted egg.. Yummy.. =)_ My dardar went out with his frens to play badminton.. me too lazy to go out so I stay home to watch scv.. now currently there's nothing to watch so online to blog and check email.. hmm today will be working noon so later can sleep abit later though sleepy..

oh my god...

WooW.... It's been soooo long that I've been blogging my daily lives.. yesterday just got a new handphone SAM E630C.. =) My DarDar bought it for me.. Hmmm my life ah... still the same loh... Either go to work, sometimes go out with doreen and most of e time with my dar loh..

My work is a bit getting bored.. currently waiting for my study application to approve.. really wanna go back study mah... = ( Tonight have to work though is a sat... night duty... need to find ppl to chit chat with me man...

Hmm dunno wat to blog for now.. see ya later..

It's been so long never blog..

haiz... so bored with my work now.. still got tons of work never complete yet.. can the god pls give me more time n manpower to do my work.. think i'm going crazy soon and end up in IMH( institute of mental health)...

later ard 2am I have to go for my patrol... dunno why am i so sway to be put on night shift today as there are 17 girls going to school tomolo almost the same time.. now i have 17 school bags in the ops room and i haven't even started to check on them.. =_( I have also not even started on my meeting minutes... my boss is going to kill me man...

now I really miss my dear dear... hope i can hug him... (-_-) I thought the work would be very interesting but seems like i'm wrong... i dun like paperwork.. but y am i always being put to be the secretariat for meeting... i just wan to get a job without much paperwork.. n have fun... y is it so diffcult... so angry with life in spore... can someone help me..... i'm out of breath..

5 mOrE dAyS tO gO...

hmmm Fri went home in the morning afte rwork and started to sleep till ard 2+pm my hp was ringing.. I pick up the phone and it was my 'di' who called me.. he jio me to go out at meet 6pm at orchard.. Hmm miracle.. he is asking me to go out xia..kekek.. Ard 5+pm he call me and change the venue to suntec city so in end i'm late.. Hahaha... We went to Sakae for dinner then carrefour to look for food to buy for my upcoming birthday chalet.. =) so excited xia.. After that we went to orchard taka to buy mooncakes for my family.. I then accompanied him home coz he got curfew.. He stay in cck so in the end by e time I reach home is alreadi 12am..

Sat after work went out with frens to eat dinner at Kembagan... Damn far from my workplace but quite worth it.. We had black pepper crab.. Hmm nice, too not hot and spicy.. =) after that we went to chinatown to sing ktv till 4am.. woow.. Still have to wake up at 8+am in the mornin for my outing.. Kekeke..

Finally is Sunday..!! I meet my frens at the mrt control but.. only the two of us are punctual.. the rest of them all late.. haiz.. In end we reach Sentosa ard 12pm.. The weather is nice.. We look for a quite shady part and sat over there n chit chat for awhile.. We had a session of volleyball cum soccer session... Hahhaa..Some of our guys top off their top xia.. Wooh.. quite muscular xia.. except one who dun maintain his figure xia.. Flabby... Kekke... After that we shifted over to the opp side and started to play water volleyball..Hahaha... I got sa bo and drank some sea water.. EE... Ard 3+pm feel quite hungry and one of the guys was leaving soon so we took a short break and have a quick bite on shore.. To dry up our ba ju, we took the monorail ard sentosa and after that return to the beach to bathe... We left Sentosa and went to the hawker center nearby to eat.. Humm.. so hungry.. Ate hokkien mee but not nice one.. Went to harburfront awhile then home again..

Today at work was in the warzone.. Did shout alot but luckily got my assistant to do most of it.. Hahhaa... Went home after work to watch vcd.. And now think I should go to sleep le.. Zzzzzz... Goodnight to myself..(>.<)

StiLL CoUgHiNg..

Didnt chat with my fren on tues night as still having cough.. Slept at ard 3+am.. woke up ard 6+am to go to work.. Today I was the assistant of the dining hall(warzone). Didnt didnt much shouting but still having abit of sore throat.. After work went home to take a short nap.. Waited for my fren to off work then went over to ochard cineleisure to eat dinner and eatch movie. OMG.. Wat a 1st impression.. I told my fren to dress casually.. told him to go to orchard so thought at least he will wear tshirt n jeans.. but.. He wear a very large tshirt, 3 quarter burmudas and sport shoes with high ankle socks.. Wa.. Wat an odd dressing.. He thought he going walkin walkin at downstairs or play computer games with kids ah.. At least more maturely.. (-_-")

I wanted him to change to jeans n tshirt and finally we took a cab to orchard.. We watched the movie, Man on fire.. The movie is nice though abit too long... After the show we took can home..

Though today drink a lot of water, but my throat still abit dry... I'm on night shift again on thurs.. haiz....

I'm sO ThRistY NooW!!

Finally I found a fren to go out with me on Sat... Another of my fren last min join us.. We went to orchard eat dinner and watch movie.. We watched the movie, Ghost.. Hahaha.. Both of my frens scared to watch horror show 1.. So I sit in the middle to give them security xia.. The show not bad.. just that in the end dun understand wat actually happen. =P My gal fren went off so me n the other fren went to music underground to take alook at the environment.. Sucks.. So many kin nan.. OMG... Me and my fren nearly fallen asleep in there xia.. The music not that nice too.. We chat at the bus stop for awhile and left at 4am in the morning..

Yesterday was on night duty again... Haiz.. Always spoil my sunday... But luckily got frens to accompany me by chatting online and on the phone.. So nice of them.. =) Got a very funny incident happen at my workplace.. I went for my rounds at 4.30am in the morning.. I was quite shocked that I saw the girl who usually wake up late for school actually alreadi bathe and changed into her school uniform.. I didnt open the door as is still early.. later when i'm back to my ops room, they intercome me to open the door... It was still early so I went over to tell the girls.. Then wat.. They nv realise is just 4.45am not 5.45am.. Hahaha... No choice.. They have to stay in the quarters to revise school work or chait chat... Kekeke...

Went home ard 9+am and started sleeping till 6+pm.. Weather too nice to sleep.. Kekeke... Accompany my fren to chat after my dinner.. Wa.. We chat for 3 hrs xia.. And now I'm so thristy... =P~

2MoLo Is My oFF DaY!

Been a few days nv update my blog alreadi.. Tue I got mc and stay home to rest... Wed and Thurs work in the ops room so at least can rest my voice coz no need to shout at the girls.. kekek.. Wed after work went home and wait for my new computer table and chair to be delivered to my house... Waited till 5.50 then got all my stuff... Went out to meet my good fren at orchard to eat dinner.. We walk ard aimlessly and in e end we went to Devil's Bar to have a drink since is ladies night..

Yesterday worked till 9pm then go home and bought my dinner at mos burger... So chiam.. Then reach home chit chat awhile with my fren then go to sleep liao. Next mon working morning shift...

Today assist in the dining hall.. Everything seems ok.. Not much girls create trouble... After work went to Plaza Singapura to walk ard and saw a fren at carrefour. So coincidence.. Ask a few frens come out but they not free leh so sad.. so went home to take my dinner and watch tv..

Tomolo is my off day leh.. dunno got frens free to go out with me or not...

HaIz.. I'm sIcK aGaIn..

Today after work took a cab home to sleep a few hrs before went to hougang polyclinic see doctor.. Haiz.. Sick again.. My sore throat got worsen after working night shift last night... My voice changed this morning.. Alreadi try not to shout at the girls last night..

Yesterday night gave them medicine ard 8pm then let them watched President Challenge till 10pm and do roll call. Finally can rest for awhile till midnight then start patrolling.. Some of the girls play hide n seek with me.. Ard 1am I went for my rounds at the dormitory, heard someone toking in e dorm but once heard my footsteps immediately run back to the bed.. Dunno which girl still dun wan to sleep at this hr xia.. I give them warning n pretend to walk down the stairs.. I stay there for awhile to hear whether got anymore sound. Last then a min I heard ppl toking so I slowly walk up again and Finally saw four girls standing in e middle of the dorm.. Hahaha.. Caught them red handed.. They panic awhile then went back to their bed and pretend to sleep.. Haiz.. How old liao still play hide n seek with me.. Hahaha..

Slept for two hrs then went patrol again. All were in order le.. Morning brought down the breakfast n dispensary girls and wait for the mornign shift staff to relieve my duty.. By 9am Home at last!! Miss my bed xia.. Woke up ard 1.30pm and went out with my mum to the clinic.. Saw the doc and got an mc for tomolo.. No warzone for me tomolo.. Hahahaha =P A day for me tomolo to rest my voice..

HaIz.. Y dO i HaF 2 wOrK 2DaY??

My work for yesterday was ok coz I'm too sick to bother much shouting at the girls.. Haahaha..sore throat.. After work took a cab to my one of my '7 sisters gang' brithday bbq cum chalet.. Its been years that I've havent seen her two younger sisters.. suddenly feel that i'm going old liao.. last time saw them they are still in lower sec and pri but now one is jc2, another is sec 4..
Some of my 'sisters' brought along their bf and we did chat quite alot too.. Happy for them to get a chattable bf.. =) We ate quite alot of food.. Got stingray(not that nice coz no samble chillies), black pepper crab(didnt try), prawns, chicken wings(not bad), hotdogs, otah, agar agar(made by our birthday girl!), been hoon, curry chicken, egg toufu, totato sauce fish fillets(cater).. Wa... Overall not bad lah.. The clubhouse was nice too. Is inside the civil service club.. I'm also in govt sector, so can actually join as member of e club. Was wondering how it looks like.. Hmm finally got a chance to see but still think not worth it coz is too far!! At changi village leh..(-_-") We took photos with our birthday girl when she was cutting her cake.. the cake was nice.. from prima deli, Hazelnut cake. After that we left the place ard 10+pm..
Me and one of the' sister' took a cab to orchard cineleisure to catch a movie. Saw one of my fren from my wholivesnearyou gang. So incoincidence.. But too bad he's watch Ghost, not the same show as me.. At first thought of watchin Garfield the movie, but in e end we watched Three Extremes. Haiz... Not a very good show.. the last part by the korean director abit sucks... Not much storylines, just keep on using fake blood, screaming and damn comedy.. Hahaha... After e show we loiter ard orchard, went to Swensens to get some finger food then slowly walk down to selegie and to little india.. Was intending to a get a small hotel to rest for a few hrs.. but cant get any.. all fully book.. Woohh.. good business xia.. Hahaha.. Finally ard 6+am, we took a cab home and finally on my bed.. kekeke..
Slept till ard 1.40pm then wake up.. Hahaha.. Taken my brunch and watched some tv programs.. My parents went out to meet my brother to look for new tv.. Coz my home 1 spoil liao.. I'm now alone at home.. Wanted to go out but.. I have to work tonight.. So sian!!! Y me again.. I'm always so sway have to work on weekends, and some more on night shift!! +_(

I'm SiCk 2DaY!!

Haiz yesterday was a busy day.. was doing duty at the warzone again.. haiz... And got sick today... =_( Dunno y i've post my msg in here but is not appearing leh... haiz dunno wat happen to it.. stupid... !#$^$^& Yesterday night got fever.. 37.2, 37.5 then at night 37.6. wa got headache.. taken a pannadol and went to sleep at 10+pm and slept till morning 6+am, call my workplace to report sick then continue to sleep till 10+am.
Ard 12noon went out w my mum to go polyclinic see doc. then went to toa payoh courts to see the com table n chair. Finally I'm getting a new com table and a chair that i can rest my back.. It's going to be in my house on wed...!! So happy... =) I'm now still feeling a bit hot and having sore throat.. So sian tomolo have to work.. Dun feel like going to work mah... (-_-")

Warzone!! Clubbing!! Supper!!

Oh... Yesterday I was alone at the warzone, the dining hall!! Wa sie is my first time posted there alone xia.. So nervous scared cant control them but lucky everything seems fine other than got one girl really testing my patience, refused to go for footdrill so referred her to my boss to get scolding. Hahaha, and after that keep on staring at me.(*_*)
Finally the work is over, got caught up at work last min but cant find e solution so quickly left liao. I'm late to meet my good fren at Zouk xia.. (die!!) Quickly put on some makeup at the bus stop while waiting for the cab. We went into to the magazine, Seventeen 2yr anniversary party but it was so bored.. See all the kin na competition on style.. Some more the worse thing is, NO Alcohol!! Wa piang.. We quickly change venue liao. Went to dbl O but was closed becoz is weekday. So in end we went to CU.

It was quite quiet that time.. Was gals nite so not much guys to see.. Haiz.. but lucky got free flow housepour so we chat at the sofa. Ard 10+pm the crowd started to come in. Alot of ang mo also came.. All so Tall!! me like in Ai Ren Guo. (+_+) 11pm me and my fren went to the dance floor to see the gals standing on the bar top and started dancing. By e way CU last time is call Coyote Ugly, the first pub to have the license for bar top dancing. Me and my fren like log at the dance floor. One ang mo gal look at us and invited us to dance. No choice lah, we started entertain her and after awhile, another lady, I guess is a philippines started toking to us and dance together. We started getting tips from her on how to dance. The tips are, 1) follow the rhythm, 2) follow the beat, 3) enjoy yrself and finally yr body will start to move.. Woow.... And we started dancing till dun feel like going back. But I have alreadi jio another grp of frens for supper so left the pub ard 12.35am.

Took a cab to Sgoon s-11 to meet them and one of the gals duah us. We went to chomp chomp and makan "international" food. Got Western food from French, Speggetti from Italy, Guo Tian from China and Hao Jian from Spore!! After chit chat awhile, we took a cab home and it was alreadi 3+am..

Busy Day...

Woke up abt 11am and continue to lie on my bed till 11.24am. Look at the sky and seems like is going to rain.. Nobody is at home except me.. Went to wash my clothes and bathe before go to work.. Took a cab to work again, hahaha.. Wa sie.. so cold inside the staff room.. Took over duty from morning staff and started to day dream in there.. kekeke..

Wasnt very busy in the early noon but ard 5+pm when I was eating my dinner, the cisco officer say 6 girls come in.. Wa so many, nearly spit out rice out of my mouth!! I panic awhile and my phone keep on ringing to check whether do i need help or not. haha. luckily my mentor havent left work so stay back to help me.. And my boss came to help me monitor the girls.. Feel so happy, they so teng me.. =_ ) Finally ard 6.30pm, left the ops room and went to lock up the girls..

When I can rest at last is ard 7+pm liao.. So hungry finally pack my bag and continue my dinner in the ops room.. Kekeke.. After off work went to toa payoh interchange to stroll awhile and bought 3 vcd back home.. My mum is finally back from Malaysia.. Kind of miss her xia.. Esp her cooking.. Kekek.. =)~

Ard 10 went into the room to test out the vcd thru my pc as my living room tv spoil cant watch vcd.. (-_-"). Cantonese drama, on mystic and spirits.. keke my favourite!!! Jio my mum into the room to watch with me. Lying on the floor with my bloster and blanket.. So nice feeling, like watchin at movie threatre.. keke.. My fren jio me go chit chat but till now she havent call me yet.. should I go to sleep leh?

Now everyone in the house is sleeping except me.. Hmm is that call insomnia?? Hahhaa..

Fun..Fun..Fun..

After work went home awhile to get changed before went to my fren's fren house to watch vcd, shrek 2. But didn't really watch it coz was online seraching for ppl to join us go chinabkack cheong.. hahaha.. Ard 7 we went to hg mall eat dinner at magic wok. Ordered thai pineapple rice.. EE.. not tat nice.. (note: next time dun order that in that restaurant). Hahaha.. Another gal fren met us there and we took a cab to orchard. When we are about to alight, the taxi driver told us, "dun keep on looking at guys there.." wa.. the whole trip that uncle was listening to our conversation xia..

The queue is very long xia.. Was standing outside the building for abt 1 hr then finally go into chinablack.. When we went in, it was so dark. I told my frens that y is call chinablack not chinawhite. Kekeke.. My fren find the place's music too loud and no sense of security.. And she had msg someone who I alreadi jio him along before she knew it to give her a surprise.. =P We have each got a free cup of drink. I've ordered vohka with all diff flavours, vohka lime lah, vohka orange lah, vohka ribena and vohka 7-up coz dunno they like wat flavour.. And.. in the end all three like the one with 7-up..

While we are chit chattin at the bar, one of the bartender took my drink which I havent even finish yet.. So sad.. By the way at first i'm drinkin vohka ribena but my fren dun like her vohka lime so I exchange with her and help her finish up.. Then finally our the other fren is here.. He's a guy but is younger than us lah.. but we dun mind lah.. We chit chat awhile and bought another large of cocktail speciality, screwdriver. I almost finish up the whole jar xia.. Then my fren finish up one whole jar of vohka 7-up as she was competing with that guy fren.And what happen..?? She after awhile xie liao... Hahaha.. We feel abit bored so went into the dance floor and started dancing.. At first all abit paiseh.. but in e end we hug each other and started dancing body to body xia.. Wa.. So hot xia.. :)~ Ard 2am me and one girl fren went home first.. The other 2 continue to dance at CB.

When I reach home alreadi coming 3am.. Went to bathe, didnt even comb my hair and fallen alseep on my bed till next morning.. And by e time I woke up, is alreadi 10.55am and.. I totally forgotten to take out my contact lens last night!! Oh my god.. I starting work at 11.30am leh.. Quickly washup and took a cab to work.. Luckily wasnt late for wat.. So tired when reached my workplace.. After work took a cab home and bought a mix veg rice to eat.. Now look like panda xia.. =P

Sad day..

Haiz.. My off day just passed.. So sad.. Nobody jio me out, I'm so bored at home for the whole day... Didnt take my breakfast and lunch coz no mood to eat.. =_(

Ard 6+pm went out on my own planning to eat dinner at orchard but sat at the bus stop for quite long but didnt board the bus. Messaged a few frens but no one was free.. Haiz.. I was on my way to Toa Payoh planning to eat at Swensens or Sakae. Finally a fren msg me to go for coffee after his work. So happy! After my dinner, I went to the bus stop but was quite late liao. I'm late for the appointment! So paiseh.. Offered to give my fren a massage coz made him waited for me for half an hr.. But he told me, "no need lah, someone will kill me."

I was curious, who will kill him?? He replied, my ex for now, we always on and off. Wa..! Suddenly I felt so sad.. Wanted to cry out liao.. He's not available.. I was quite interested in him, but he's not available.. =_( (veri veri sad). Y... The one i'm interested in always not available or attached alreadi.?? The few hrs we are together drinkin coffee and chatting, I was looking at him.. Outside I look ok, but inside my heart I was thinking, "Y am I always so sway, is the god playing on me?!"

Ard 11+pm he send me home coz tomolo he need to go for the sports day organise by his boss. I offered to give him morning call as tomolo I'm on morning shift. But he say no need.. Haiz.. We didnt tok much coz he was driving. I took a few glaces at him.. When reach my house downstairs, I was thinking, so fast reach home liao ah.. Cant see him longer alreadi.. I struggle to say bye and remember to drink more water and wave at him. I went up to my blk hoping to see his car went off but he alreadi left b4 I can see it.

Now alreadi 12+am and I still cant get to sleep. Tomolo I have to wake up at 6+am for work.. I'm feeling very sad now.. How? Wat can I do now?? =(

Haiz.. Feeling more n more bored each day..

Today actually I'm quite tired but cant get to sleep again. Wed morning after work, i took a cab home and immediately fallen asleep on my bed till 4+pm, my fren sms me jioing me to go for supper at geylang. I thought she wanted to go there at that night, but hhahah is on thursday night.. So I agreed as Friday I dun have to work.

I cant get back to sleep so went to brush teeth and started disturb one of my fren who had accompanied me to chat till 3+am on wed while I'm doing night duty.. kekek... He jio me to go eat dessert at sgoon garden so ok loh since i'm bored at home in e evening. He drove a red daihutsu charade and looking for a parking lot at e chomp chomp area.. Hahaha he cant stand e hot weather as his car air con spoil after his 3 weeks reservist so in e end we end up chatting and drinking ice blended at coffeebean! He looks kind of cute man.. Got a nice hair style and chubby cheeks too! Kekek.. We chat till 10+pm and he send me to S-11 as other fren who always dun sleep at night jio me n some frens to eat supper. Really hope to see him again. =P Later after e supper, in e end me and another fren acc e girl till 3+ 4am. (walking zombie liao) Think is becoz of the ice blended got coffee, I cant get to sleep. My heart is beating very fast... Haiz.. (panda eyes)

I not feeling well in the morning.. Actually vomitted water out in e toilet.. EE... But still have to work.. I work noon shift today so quite tired.. 8pm I immediately left my workplace and went to toa payoh central to eat yong tau fu then loiter ard till 9+pm then went home to bather b4 meet up my frens who stay nearby me.. We went to geylang eat tou hway and another dim dum snack shop... So tired.. Dunno y recently I got two frens facing some relationship problems and seek me for advice.. Hahah.. Think have to charge them money next time...

2day is just another day that i'm having insonmia.. Not becoz of coffee. Kekek.. This Friday is my off day.. Just really hope that got ppl jio me out if not i'll feel sad again.. =_(